I am a Gothic ludologist (a fancy way of saying I study horror videogames). This longread is an extension of my independent research, and examines my connection with the subject matter. It explains why mutual consent, power exchange and gender equality are paramount, but how this attitude is societally on the backfoot. Atypical stances on power, from mommy doms to cat boys, are ostracized by the "silent majority" (re: cis white heterosexual men) as castrating and alien. I shall explore this persecution phenomena as well. Update, 7/2/2023: This piece was written before I came out as trans . Its argumentation (especially in relation to the Gothic) is more cis-gendered. While my critical voice has since evolved to include trans, intersex and non-binary perspectives (featured in my upcoming book, Sex Positivity versus Sex Coercion, or Gothic Communism ), I want to preserve "Why I Submit" as a matter of historical record; though slightly outmoded, its perspective never...
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